Weekly Weigh In: Reflections

So yay! Another pound gone. It’s a great feeling and I’m pretty pleased with it. Particularly given that I have, yet again, had another fairly off plan weekend.

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For the most part, last week I was really good. I ate all on plan and was really good at tracking everything. And then it was Friday.

Friday, my nemesis. Inevitably it means that I cease paying attention to what I’m eating and lose focus on the plan. Curse  you Friday for being both the end of my work week and the temporary end of my weight loss focus.

This past weekend was, as the weekend before, a lot of fun. I met up with Bestie and we spent Saturday planning our NaNoWriMo and then going to our favorite quasi-Mexican restaurant and had a rather large pitcher of Sangria to share between the two of us. Apparently, Sangria won’t really kill me point wise, I figured I had about 4 4-oz glasses, which is around 13 points. So I can’t really complain about that.

But it was the tacos that did me in. I didn’t even track that. Nor did I track the fro-yo we had later or the procescco we had while watching Doctor Who.

Sunday day wasn’t a whole lot better. I made almond milk french toast with some left over bread. I then at lunch had a pb&j on Arnolds sandwich thins and fruit, all in all it wasn’t that bad. Until Dinner.

My family, if I haven’t mentioned this in the past, is a pizza family. My sister enjoys pointing that out to us. We like to make pizza at home to the point where we have two pizza stones for the oven and one for the charcoal grill outside.

home made pizza

This is a pizza we made on the grill last summer, but it’s fairly representative of our usual pizza events.

Last night, my brother made pizza. And it was so freaking good. He and my father are our pizza gurus and make it all for my mom, sister and I.

When we were younger we had huge pizza parties, where my dad would make pizza for the friends of us kids and it would be a huge thing. Now it’s calmed down to generally just the five of us, but this is something we’ve been doing for years. We’ve kind of gotten it down to a science.

So needless to say, I’m pretty pleased I actually lost a pound after this past weekend.

On WeighWatchers.com I created a challenge group, called Pre-Holiday Kick Off, where I’m challenging myself (and others) to lose 10 pounds by November 26. It’s a challenge for sure, but I think that if I really pay attention to it and get better at not over doing it over the weekend, I can make it work.

That said, I know that the next few weeks are going to be weekend heavy, so I need to start planning on how to handle that. This coming weekend is my college’s homecoming. Which I’m really excited about cause I’ll get to see a lot of people, but means that it’s a beer heavy weekend and more dense foods.

But, it’s a 3+ hour drive there and back so I’m pretty sure that will keep me from drinking too heavily, particularly because I’ll be driving during the day from the college to my friend’s house.

I might get back into wearing my Active Link this week see how that goes. It’s a $5 monthly charge, but given that I already own it and its a decent way to keep me active I might as well start using it again. Plus, it puts the activity points direct into my WW account and means I don’t have to calculate stuff like that.

So, that’s the end of last week and some plans for this. Here’s hoping it’s a nicer number next week.

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There have been some complications

Right. So. I followed the Fast Metabolism diet very well for the first week and lost eight pounds. Thats a yay.

Then I stopped really paying attention and didn’t lose, but I didn’t gain either. Also a yay.

But then I went to Martha’s Vineyard for a few days and that pretty much ruined everything. But not everything, because I only gained back five of the pounds that I lost.

More yay things!

so not my gif

so not my gif

 

Now however, I’m starting over, but this time with my mother on hand to do the diet with me.

Which honestly, makes it so much easier because now I’m not the only one worried about certain foods (like bread) and its less likely that the ‘bad’ foods won’t make it into the house.

So these are all good things, and I’m generally happy with it. Except, I’ve just had a few major things piled onto my lap, job wise, and it’s freaking me out a little.

There is a serious possibility that I might be jumping to a completely new type of job and creating the position for the company from the ground up. Mind, I’ve never actually done what it is they would be hiring me to do.Hence the freak out.

What this means for me though, is that I want all the fatty, sugary and ‘bad for me’ foods in existence to help me get through this so that I don’t freak out anymore. Other wise known as stress eating, which is something I’m very good at.

This of course, isn’t going to happen now that my mother is on the diet with me and has basically stated that the whole house will be on the same diet. None of this is fun time.

Complications like stress never factor well into my dieting process. I just want a chocolate bar.

Mini Goals, A Continuation

First, I wanted to say thank you to everyone who sent encouragement’s to me yesterday. It was really lovely to know that I wasn’t the only one in a funk with every thing and it was just really nice in general. So thank you.

I was so far in a funk that I even stopped taking my multi vitamins and other daily nutritional capsules that I’d been taking religiously since I started this. So instead of setting weight goals, I’m going to set mini goals for the next two weeks, because I think that not focusing on the whole picture for once might help me in getting this back on track.

These mini goals include:

  • taking multi vitamins and other capsules (once and twice a day where required)
  • stretching or walking for five minutes every hour (when appropriate)
  • thinking about the food before I pick it up
  • fewer sweet things should make their way into my shopping cart
  • drink more water, less alcohol
  • use the exercise machine at least three times a week (I’m starting small shut up)
  • Track food

Some of these, like the tracking and exercise, are long term mini goals, but I’m trying to change the culture of my life and to do that I’ve realized I can’t just will them to change. Otherwise I’d have willed off the weight ages ago and gotten a raise and found a man and had a baby.

Tragically, life doesn’t work that way. So, I’m re-starting (again) with mini goals and working forward from there.

not mine

not mine

C’est la vie.

Well, I’m down, which is something

Last week started off pretty miserably with the 3 pound gain, and I kind of just let myself go after that. I was in a bad place pretty much all week and it culminated in a lot of beer and carbs over this past weekend. Not to mention the continued influx of snow and I cancelled all my barre classes and was generally sedentary all week. I also just ignored the whole tracking thing.

I didn’t even blog last week. For which I’m sorry about. I shouldn’t just give up on everything the way I did but I was so not in a good place.

But I lost nearly everything I gained, I’m down 2.5 this morning which makes me feel better. That and I finally remembered my password for this site which I just completely spaced on.

With this past weekend, I was totally sure that I’d maybe not gain, but I was sure I wouldn’t loose. I went to PA to visit my friends and this visit usually involves drinking and food. Which we did! And the beer was excellent and the food was also. We had Korean barbecue Friday night, something I’ve never had before and it was really very good.

Boneless shortribs and various kimchi and veg.

Boneless shortribs and various kimchi and veg.

And then the beer.

A beer sampler!

A beer sampler!

Ultimately, I guess I didn’t eat as much as I thought. I was pretty sure that I had, but I guess not. I’m going to get back on track this week and pay better attention to everything. I’m going to get back into exercising.

I’m hopeful for the week.

Well Count Me Frustrated

So I won my mini challenge, I tracked every day, but I gained three pounds. Which is immensely irritating as I exercised quite a lot this past week and thought I ate fairly well.

Though, if I’m being totally honest I wasn’t exactly on plan this week regardless of tracking, but I thought I’d eaten well enough for it not to matter as much as it did.

For sure, my family’s Super Bowl party didn’t help.

Part of our Super Bowl Spread

Part of our Super Bowl Spread

But honestly, I don’t think I ate badly this week. And when I did, I ate lighter the next few days. I’m just frustrated because this doesn’t seem to be working at the moment. I’m not losing but I’m exercising.

I’m at a loss of where to go from here, because I’m clearly doing something wrong. I donno. I mostly just want to go cry in a corner and not do anything.

The morning has barely started and I already want to crawl back into bed.

The Craving: A Stress Eating Story

This is a problem that I have, and of course today is Wednesday so everything is just slightly worse. Over the past two days,  due to mostly work related stress, I’m having seriously big “eat my feels” moments. Which generally speaking is a bad thing.

None of which is helped by the fact that it’s effing Wednesday, which as we all know is my worst day for foods.

I had a pretty decent breakfast, and generally avoided foods that were going to take me down a bad path, but then I had THE CRAVING.

I went into the kitchen to look for my normal go-to craving stopper, clementines only THERE WERE NO CLEMENTINES IN SIGHT. This is a problem. Because I wanted something sweet for which to satisfy my craving and those usually do it.

But with no clementines I had to go searching. I didn’t have a lot of time before I had to leave to go to my weekly meeting and I wanted something fast to hold me. And then I remembered: There was the last piece of cinnamon pie in the fridge. I ate it in seconds.

Then I tracked it (because its my mini goal this week).

Only problem: It did not satisfy my craving for long. Which can only mean bad things for later tonight. I’m seeing chocolate chip cookies or some other kind of sweet thing in my future along with the inevitable pasta dinner that is being prepared this evening for youth group.

Meanwhile, the trailer for The Fault In Our Stars came out. And if that just didn’t make me want chocolate and a glass of wine nothing does.

Lucky for me there exists nothing edible in my office. I was stuck with just the sandwich I had for lunch (sans fries – I was in a good place when I ordered) and tea.

But I’m still craving and I’m still stressed. I can’t even go to a barre class tonight to work it off like I did last night (which was an excellent plan btw). I’m tired and stressed out about the never ending list of things to do that just keeps getting stuff added to.

I want chocolate and I want it now. I want bread and carbs and sweet things. But I can’t. And it’s exhausting.

I need something that will fill the craving with out taking away too many points.

Clearly, I need to get like four boxes of clementines on the way home…

A mini tracking goal

I know logically, that tracking works. I do. And since I’m in week three of not loosing (or gaining!) anything, it’s time to start doing something different.

myparenthetical.com 7-Weight-Scale

myparenthetical.com 7-Weight-Scale

Because I’ve been exercising, I’ve made healthier choices (minus the cinnamon pie…) So something has to give.

I need to find the thing that I’m not doing that I should be doing and do it. And I’m pretty sure thats tracking.

But tracking is hard!! It’s all about accountability and I’ve never been very good at that… Excepting this blog, because for some reason I’ve actually being writing here quite frequently and felt pretty good about it.

Still! Tracking is hard and generally un-fun because you watch as that Bacon Egg and Cheese sandwich you had for breakfast takes out 13 of your 36 daily points and then you have to re-evaluate what you’re doing for dinner because that sandwich you had at lunch destroyed another 15 points. So you’ve only got 8 points left over and half way through the afternoon you’re a tad peckish but there are no fruits around to satisfy so you have a 3 point bag of chips and then you’re screwed because the family decided to have pizza for dinner. One slice is all you get before you have to dip into those 49 weekly points that you were going to save for Friday night out with the girls.

Essentially I know what I can do to that scenario not happen on a daily basis. I know that I can make better choices and keep fruit on hand so I don’t have chips or crackers mid-day. And it’s not like I’ve been making the bad choices, I’ve eaten pretty heathily this last week, not that I can prove it because I didn’t track, but I did.

Why is it then, that if I track my weight goes down? Is it that hyper awareness of what you’re eating? I don’t really know. And honestly, I’d kind of like to.

But until some one explains it, I guess I’ll stick with it just works so just do it for now.